@retoor I don't wanna be identified

finance systems also identify you

could put new users into a limbo

@retoor well it's a full moon where I'm at so that's something. I was gonna try to eat the moon via witchcraft but just now I accidentally figured out there really is a meaning to life wtf. did not expect to be pilled on that so maybe I'll be distracted (plus something about lunatics? idk)

um so there's a predictable slight boost in crypto 15th to 25th where everyone gets their paychecks and gambling more money cuz haven't paid rent yet, so there's slightly more money in the system at those times so I set them as deadlines for good luck

but also I just simply order groceries twice a month. I keep buying kefir cuz making my own hasn't worked yet, and it lasts about 2 weeks from the store which means I order groceries about twice a month, and it just so happen to fall on the beginning / end and middle of the month because that's when I do my bills I guess so I just do all my computer accounting chores at once

black hole

cuz I wonder what's in it

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I don't know. I don't even have weekends. I apparently got a migraine so bad yesterday I thought it was just a headache because my body had gone numb lol, only found out in the shower when I couldn't feel anything with my body. nice

eating a bunch of dark chocolate and cheese may have been the mistake earlier this week

also everything is breaking, I'm out of cleaner to clean the place yet 2 days ago I claimed I'd be done in the next week, but now I'm gonna have to wait until the 15th to order new cleaner

maybe my brain will recover enough to where I can code again, cuz before the 15th i'd really want some working code

at least all of crypto is going nuts because Trump won. now there's gonna be trump backstabbing drama left and right

really enjoying this weird esoteric experts in weird fields nobody takes seriously being interviewed on YouTube channel I found though. so exciting

maybe I'll play more video games and drown my misery

@antigermgerm geez ur destined for success

think I'm running on empty for 8 years but I don't even do anything yet I eternally feel like garbage

what is this magical state people keep talking about

@retoor just random discord server. don't remember now. he was passing by and arguing with somebody and I got in the middle of it. evidently it was some chick and she said now he was mine. and I guess I adopted a retarded Chihuahua human

then he proceeded to sit anywhere I was for 3 months and wouldn't talk

then he messaged me once saying he loved me

and he still couldn't talk

then he started getting violent, and like calling women axe wounds or something
and he had rage issues if anyone talked to me which was lame, so then because that wasn't flying with me he kept oscillating through various versions of self destruction

then he tried to tell people I abused him somehow, but anytime anyone met me they no longer bought it, and eventually everyone just tagged him as a crazy bipolar girl or something

and then he found some weird discord therapist who is probably a pedo and runs a cult of little girls, but he got saner after that

@Demolishun oh

I just remembered

in medieval times... they had... some amazing torture methods

one of them was
you put a dude sandwiched between two boats
his head and feet, hands are quartered outside of the boat I think

and then they force feed him milk and honey

until he shits himself to death
in the sun

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/...

the article's description is worse btw

@12bitfloat if I punched him he'd punch me and I wouldn't survive that. so it's in my best interest for there not to be punches

but still IRL somehow a woman who can't punch has more power. and those voice clips gave me power that plain text didn't

@12bitfloat had a stalker from NL saying that to me. sounds stupid to me

he was like, you wouldn't reject me IRL cuz I'd knock your skull in! something to that effect

kicker is I think my 5'8" ass would intimidate his 6'5" smeagle ass, which is just gonna make him even sadder as a human being

now I understand why he was so big into stalking

... also irl I wouldn't have to punch him. I wouldn't survive a punch from a dude well, if it hit lol, and I don't even know how to punch. so it's not punching

actually I once read out loud the messages he sent to me, via voice clip recordings, cuz he kept going on about how I interpreted him, so to prove to him I didn't interpret him the way he was saying, I read his messages in the way he sounded in my head. he "laughed" at me (but it was fake), and then 2 hours later he ragequit and deleted his server, account, etc. I didn't see him for 2 weeks. then he came by and tried to sexually harass me saying my voice was hot in those clips. right

@retoor I used to game a lot. I pirated and played every game I knew existed, and basically 80% of the MMOs that ever existed during the MMO golden era (I was poor, mom sat on welfare, computers have infinite free content, yarr!)

when mobile phones came into being I would see full adults be addicted to candy crush on the subway. but I'd see this even 2-4 years after candy crush era ended. it was strange to me these people were still addicted to games, and one game no less

I think I ceased being dopamine driven pretty early on, like 12-13. my friends would be so annoyed at me. I would get them into a game and I'd be gone in 2-3 days on to something else, bored. aside from my first year or two of gaming, I basically somehow, cured myself of gaming addiction by exposure

yesterday I played multiwinia, one of these favourite dear to my heart games nobody knows of. I've never been addicted to it or darwinia. I somehow played several matches and couldn't help myself. bruh, wild?

it's probably the bots tbh

things aren't up voted by merit. so you never see the best of humanity. you see the best of humanity that still tows some arbitrary and irrelevant line. so merit degrades, and everyone becomes nihilistic

@TrayKnots surgeons who are gamers score 26% better on surgery things at minimum

so said Elon musk and Joe Rogan on their interview

gamers rise up

anyway so I started playing games again because I have brain damage I have to reheal from

@retoor I think the trick is to still say the same stuff but get up voted for it. if the content changes then you're cheating!

@Demolishun pretty sure he knows it, so he's participating in it willfully

@Tounai 🙄

@Tounai you identified the EU with their behavior

as soon as you cease viewing EU as the identity filled with people of that disposition, the EU will cease being of the identity of being filled with people of that disposition

you wanna start a revolution, just change the perception of what the EU identity is, and everything else follows from there. because it'll actually make people uncomfortable that the identity doesn't fit, so they'll wanna do something about it. by acknowledging the embarrassing identity and just living with it, you excuse it, normalize it, and it continues. you give it power, legitimacy, as "that's just the way things are"

@Tounai well step one is not excusing their behaviour

cuz doing that it'll only get worse until something breaks and people finally cease excusing their behavior. there is no other way out

have you just tried a colonoscopy bag

@Tounai make the harmful acts people do illegal, not the activity that is tangentially related to their harmful activities

drugs themselves are fine if you're responsible with them

now... how about those doctors that prescribed opioids to everyone while told them they weren't addictive?

or how about drug dealers that keep lacing fentanyl in everything when that's not what you asked for?

and you can arrest them on the basis of using poor drug mules, or disclosing their airplanes of drugs incorrectly on flight reports to the government (which allows slave laboured items to get into the country, otherwise you can't tell if goods were made by slave labour or what)

@Tounai garlic is a drug

ginger is a drug

tea? drug

chocolate? drug

spices are literally medicinal drugs! we don't view them that way now but they are!

everything is a drug!

breathe air and it has aluminum dust in it? drug!

this actually makes perfect sense to me

their names are funny tho

accessibility would make sense if it was something like, "if you have a user and they want accomodations they can contact you about accomodations for them and you should make reasonable accomodations"

but out of the gate requiring everyone is really labour intensive and daunting

these people are self destructive on purpose though. that's the goal. they wanna mire people in irrelevant problems so that they can't focus on what really matters. they wanna give people useless work so that everyone feels like what they do is irrelevant, meaningless. then they usher in communism, which is actually gonna be more of the same useless system that further alienates people and mires them in even more rules that don't make sense and nobody wants. and this is the goal, the goal is to tangle people in useless rules and drain them of their spirit, will to live, on purpose

accomodations to the "minority" on default deliberately breaks pareto principle which exists in all of nature & thrives life

ostream is just confused and throws his confusion on others. he wants validation / help for his confusion I think

@Demolishun yeah you're just super harmless

I've gotten downvoted on some occasions but I think by this point people got used to me. people just dislike my opinions or sometimes really get triggered by something I say so target me for a while (and interestingly enough seem to not be cognizant of why they're exactly mad at me which is kind of funny), but generally most humans tire themselves out eventually and everything goes back to peaceful

@Demolishun lensflare and tosensei made me lose mine

I don't think I've ever downvoted you. you just post cheesy jokes, which is hardly going to be aggravating. then again I guess some people can't handle humour which is pretty wild and surprising. cheesy humour is too much for them lmao? how? 🤣

@PappyHans if you downvote it'll be for you only but if 2 down vote it'll be for everyone and the post gets hidden unless you have a direct link to it or go to the profile of the poster

for comments I guess they just plain disappear

for downvoting comments if it's only you I don't think it hides it until it gets -2 and then the comment I think gets deleted? cuz you can't find it on profiles or anything. unsure if the user who got downvoted get permanent negative score either (if user A upvotes user B, and then user A deletes their account, used B's total score then decreases by all the user A's upvotes for them. similarly if you delete your own comments and they had upvotes your score will go down)

I see accounts with negative total score so being downvoted must degrade your score in some way, but downvotes are harder to track to know how that system works

I guess I could get a downvoted comment and try to test but I'm lazy

just means you don't take it upon you to suffer for the greater good of all

so selfish

@Demolishun my bf lives near the Mexican border. maybe I can get him to buy me some and send it in an unmarked package I guess

but honestly I didn't beeline for it because it was like 1 of 30 potential solutions and the 30 didn't work

it shouldn't be banned in the first place. just fucked up shit

I was googling if I had it right and the only thing that comes up is a news story about undercover journalists trying to figure out how Canadians were trying to get ivermectin in 2022, except the article just stops and doesn't disclose. does mention it's "anti vaxxers" that are doing it. I took your damned vaccine! that's why I'm looking for it!

these people are so gross

@Demolishun hahaha yeah been seeing that. next year we have elections and if they come up here they'll get retraumatized because our conservative guy will win cuz the liberals tanked their reputations so badly it is unknown if they will recover in the next decade