tmux I love you

urgghhh this old laptop doesn't have a working shift key

also it's sticky. eeeeee

thankfully there's 2 shift keys but talk about awkward

just gotta dump ssh on it and find out if it can run rust or not. God this thing is slow. was top of the line 10 years ago when this business guy bought the best laptop he could find, now somehow barely runs arch. crazy

heh what if you make an ad that does no horror or coercion but makes anyone who sees it buy your product out of compulsive, OCD-like terror

do you think they would care about ads doing subliminal hacking of brains

I feel like this is when mods ban me for not the rules

I find your lack of capitalism to be... disturbing

wow tarot cards have a solution to hobby programming projects

just always stuck in 3 of wands, forever

cuz 5 of wands sucked. so then I started avoiding 4 of wands to never get to 5. and then you just get stuck planning forever at 3.

5 is when communities of people come with their own ideas and cause self doubts in you, override you. 4 is respite/pride/reveling and feeling comfortable in your idea/quest and seeking out a community base to share it with

guess in the end it's always that people suck and nobody can do anything alone. mega lame!

urgh I want someone to help me with my job PTSD by like letting me talk to them as I try to choose one and figure out my neurosis and just do some comforting words or something

but they're thinking of doing it next week when my boyfriend will get his passport next week and I wanna spend 3 weeks with him unemployed just chilling when he finally visits 🥺

skipped my meds yesterday night by accident and just got the best sleep I've had in a month. yeah fuck these things

and they lied to me and told me they were sleeping meds the first time even tho that was unnecessary to be doing and they're not prescribed for sleep

I hate the medical field. that's so fucking gross

downside of being magically healed by people is I don't have the brain to learn magic (maybe it's the drugs honestly...) so I'm ravenously dependent on this guy to do another round so I can gain more brainpower

fucking hell

I don't like dependence

also every time he does this I feel like I've been sutured for 1-3 days. and I gotta be careful and not pull at them. how the hell do you do that with a brain? that's gonna be so fucking bad. "just don't think at 145 iq horsepower" tehe.

AND he says it's experimental. and what the fuck he says he's only this good at healing due to past mistakes... I might end up a vegetable. but I'm already a fucking vegetable. fuck

upside, he fixed my nervous system back to having endurance for emotions and stress so I'm not fucked up from thinking all this. yay some resilience for once after 3 years of hell

one guy thinks I survived a paradoxical collision of time magic. that doesn't make sense why the shit would I have hit a fucking time traveling universe. then he changed his mind thinking failed possession. this makes more sense to me but who the fuck would've wanted to possess me. fucking Christ. and could they not have melted my nervous system having tried to do so. mean as shit.
I still think it was a hex. I think it was a death hex actually.

thanks for coming to the weirdest shit ever Ted episode

my tarot cards basically say good luck, too. nothing happened. you had a bunch of energy, you made a bunch of money, now you can sit at home and think about stuff, effect the world with yourself as you see fit, and either be a judgemental prick or a righteous prick. this is basically a retirement plan.

micortears in brain
guy is repeatedly aghast at the damage and genuinely worried about me every time
lol

modern therapy and psychology is just autistically trying to figure out what the soul wants

zzzzz

have you tried just not murdering it in the first place tho

humans like to put other humans into negative and self-limiting emotions a lot

are YOU in a codependent relationship with your laptop?!

how 2 make chocolate into a healthy food

sigh I miss it. bad stuff happens if I eat it. so sad

just say no to heat

heat cannot enter your home if you say no

ARE YOU SAYING NO PROPERLY?!

Moroccan hot sauce, my maaannn

argghh no auto format standards on JavaScript

also though libraries breaking for no reason because no types _I guess_

I haven't coded in so long I'm actually starting to miss it

I wish dev work was about the tech, the logic, the architecture

but annoyingly it's always about people

it annoys me we can't feng shui our tech

we started with the ability to but over time corporate overlords tell you how all your GUI looks and now there's ads on windows start menus

granted I just want feng shui on my android -- but android is a disaster now. and I miss WebOS gestures that nobody ever reproduced

I also still want custom chat apps. like you css your own and it's just a chat protocol. but we re-inventing email here I suppose

welcome back, folks

now I can't make little snippy lines at people's posts

they're not meant to be big enough to be their own post 😩

for coordination there's always https://snek.molodetz.nl/web.html

so plugging it now

we were in space. we failed our mission in this rust bucket of a ship. we were the last of humanity. surprised the thing was holding the oxygen in from space at all. we didn't even have power for lights inside the rust bucket

and there was this thing... we did something to it but it failed, we needed it for some mission but our plan went wrong... and we had 2-3 hours of oxygen left. it was impaled on a rusty sharp section of a half broken wall. right down the middle. of its mangled human body if you could call it that. it had melting skin, dripping blood and melting cartilage. in this rust bucket, of high heat and humidity, and you could smell its melting flesh like you bit your own lip and singed it somehow at the same time. like burnt meat, cartilage on the BBQ but with fresh irony blood, the taste of the flesh of your lip. and it noticed me and started tearing itself along the rusty wall segment that was serrated... moving fast and terrifying. it was hungry. it was angry. it had nothing else on its mind, and no possibility of anything else. livid

can't even enjoy suffocating to death for 2-3 hours in peace

one thing to have dreams of dying but come on. can't even die in peace now!

can't believe leetcode is here around to stay lol

guys, remember, don't think

the establishment and authority, your peers, your boss, your company, the whole corporate, economic structure as approved by government... if you try to think instead of nodding. you're the problem

don't think, man

no thinky

I don't like how tech companies are advertising they will sell you "peace of mind"

better question is why did you take it away in the first place, eh? so if you took it away in the first place why would I trust you to fix the issue you caused? talk about insanity, doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results

why don't I remember everything I ever did crystal clear forever?

guys dancing salsa is like a shamanic magical trip that changes your life forever and gives you Buddhist-level enlightenment

just saying

> By designing nudges that align with students' goals and cognitive processes, educators can effectively support students in reaching their full potential and improving their academic performance

remember kids. your full potential is dictated by others, not by you

I am creeped out and I hate society

an economy where jobs hide their salaries is confusing

you want people with skills but you refuse to signal how much you want people with those skills

if you actually are clear and honest about how much you want those skills, people would learn those skills to sell them to you...

but instead they would rather play poker and tell you they don't want the skills... while complaining to someone else (government, universities, whatever) behind citizen's backs about how lazy the average citizen is for not having the skills -- yet they refuse to disclose how much they want said skills to make said skills a target for the citizen to want to achieve to receive the incentive of the moneys that citizens require for living

self-fulfilling retardation

deception is the root of all evil I swear