IMPACT

don't you want... IMPACT?!

government death by bureaucracy mirrors code death by security features

I just wanna do some basic automatic release and evidently I have to get around not one but two security features to do it. remember when everything was easy and fun and just like butter. pepperidge farm remembers

one of them was a hack. lol. so the security feature doesn't even work. they added a new feature which they didn't realize would allow someone to daisy chain the original functionality back in. sad

I literally like bash more than rust for command line tools

it's more readable

all the solutions in rust are always subpar

and it's not even the ownership stuff it's the syntax like with errors with stuff

you just can't be concise so don't even try it

write everything out imperative

using AI is the new water-cooler break. the walking around and saying hi to your co-workers time-waste. the compiling procrastination

Canada is so owned by China's climate scam the only jobs for software development in Canada are carbon credits or some green energy nonsense... sigh how is this not a dystopia already. every industry and sector is shrinking but Canada keeps pumping more subsidies into the climate scam so it's the only thing that exists now

maybe we'll economic collapse and I can retire but I wanted to get more money first just in case

macros are ugly but I guess I can get over it

my standards just keep decreasing and decreasing. maybe at some point I'll actually understand rust

problem is... macros are DECLARATIVE. so probably once I start I'll just make a macro of everything and it'll look like lisp/perl or something. variable length arguments lol yay at least that basic feature xD

I also hate typing

if I keep practicing burnout will I get burnout resistance. like level up. expertise at conquering 🤔

that's how muscles work, so?

imperative languages are dumb. why would you do it like this?

... I remember thinking programming is amazing because everything is possible in it

in rust, nothing is possible

I keep reducing the number of features to make it easier for me

but it seems that I'm losing unintended to lose functionality now even too -.-

how is it I have less code, on account of removing features, but suddenly I have more bugs?

these STRAITJACKETS

geez there's not even a working uml diagram generator for rust

you can barely fit your files on one screen goddamnit. thought it would help

VERBOSITY

lol

just eating cheese, chugging coffee, and rolling with some hard techno

as I take this stupid prescribed anti dopamine pill

hahaha

(cheese has tyrosine which makes dopamine, coffee spikes dopamine, and obviously exciting things that hyper focus you are dopamine)

such a useless pill. modern society. already on the lowest dose

soon gonna eat cake. sugar gives dopamine spikes too

and I'm told don't smoke weed... which also gives dopamine spikes (but reduces inflammation) and had calmed my issues instead of exacerbating them, but noooo ignore me

I can't even with society. doctors don't believe in inflammation. only drugs we can't patent are bad mmkay. literally know nothing about chemistry, nutrition, but will tell you arrogantly and with superiority with no discussion how you should be living your life. such a prison. every time. Idiocracy healthcare buttons

best money to be made is through obfuscation, then you come in saying you have the true info, and then you give the wrong info so your secondary friends can make some money while leaving you alone

there will be no abstractions. I will just literally write everything out, every single path. no generics, no reusability

I don't think rust is made for reusability. every time I try I corner myself somewhere and confused myself

JavaScript is such king of reusability ngl. so sexy

but ok I can put in a lot of literal effort to touch every little itty bitty. let's see how it goes. new philosophy. touchy touchy

efficient or elegant

choose neither

urgghhh

met a dude 3 months ago and hung out. he's socialed me out. guess what, he caught feelings

I totally forgot this used to happen to me. I'm just SO FUCKING INTERESTING apparently

I hate it. he knows I have a boyfriend. now he's being manipulative on top of it pretty sure, to hang out more even though I'm like "wait a moment, how about we hang out less". why are people like this. I totally forgot. are people always like this. you can't blink at the opposite sex. I must just be TOO INTERESTING

how the hell does anyone get married

or maybe moral of the story is avoid anxious people or something and rate everything as a red flag. I don't even know

I thought we were just two programmers trying to do fitness. not that kind of fitness though 😩

people really do seem to be trying to tell you as hard as possible that being happy should be illegal

found something that makes you happy? here's an excuse why you shouldn't do it. biiiitch

if the excuses don't work then let's try fearmongering, laws, "suggestions" as if they're your parents... know better than you... since when? you're not in my body so how are you qualified or would even be accountable for making these suggestions at me? what kind of nonsense is this?

I think y'all might be depressed

a hunch

I bought a melting neon colored skull shirt that glows in the dark 😏

the image will be complete

listened to some tibetan healing bowls last night in the bath. made me have those back of neck goosebumps

now today... other music is giving me goosebumps. ooo don't mind if I do. been years since music gave me goosebumps. apparently it's not called ASMR but frisson. and modern science doesn't believe in ASMR because it's "not measurable". ah, every time

can't. do. anything.

raaaaaghhh

rust async is one of those things that is just so ugly

that you think you should wait and in 10 years maybe they'll actually make it not ugly

reminds me of myself training myself for callback hell only for promises to then come out and it's like why did I the pain then and adapted. 80% of CSS I learned is also deprecated now, and I didn't bother to commit to brain the new stuff cuz I'm thinking like "well they'll change it anyway" even though that's sort of irrational. not like I can predict what will get deprecated

see, the woo-woo people agree

can society, friends, jobs stop shaming me for having purpose on my life

it's so strange

something I wrote in JavaScript built on top of the exact same API as has been reproduced in rust by a library now

rewrote it in rust but 1/5th the features cuz lazy

has three times the bugs as the original version... like... before my bug fixing

is it rust. is rust the problem

when will my brain become one with rust already

sigh

my tarot says my true self is the hanged man which is pretty cool ngl

looking at jobs I don't have the brains for this anymore I think

that's so sad

I wonder if I do obsessive cardio could I outdo all the "multiple sclerosis" lesions -.-

can't code my way out of a fucking paper bag

had some dude add me on LinkedIn that looks impressive and he's connected to some people I worked with who were impressed with my code before... so years later they must've been still talking about me. but I'm a shadow of my former self if I could even qualify as a fucking shadow. I'm so embarrassed to even be existing that's my level of depression on the matter

electric cars whirring noise so creepy

creeping in my back alley

like some kind of cylon patrolling... they even got the eyes!