So November is epilepsy awareness month.

People literally shaking with excitement about this.

We have a cold moving through our house. Some people have it, some people don't.

Me: Do you have a cold?
Kid: I don't know...
Me: Is your nose running?
Kid: Yes
Me: Then why don't you go catch it?
Kid: ...shut up...

The push for AI is going to put people in hot water and possibly jail. Here is one example.

Is it okay to put a resume into an AI Detector to determine if it was AI written?

If PII is not removed, and the AI Detector is a public service (meaning no control of where the data goes) then it may be a GDPR violation. PII is not a joke in the USA either. There are things you have to follow to protect that. Work history is also a form of PII. It names places you worked so someone could figure out it is you that way.

Also, why would anyone care if they used AI to work on their resume? People are being asked to modify their resume to match job descriptions. One tool to do that is to use AI to help with this. If someone does this, and doesn't proof read that is on them. Also, you have to tone down the flowery bullshit AI produces. It embellishes and flat out lies.

This world can fuck right off.

March of 2025. I dove into a depression as a complication of my bipolar 2. Has less mania and more I want to die episodes. I noticed this as losing all interest in everything in my life. I DIDN'T HEED THE WARNING!!!

This results in me being distracted at work and struggling to learn a new platform. It also doesn't help that my supervisor keeps pulling me off the project to work on other shit. ALL OF WHICH I COMPLETED SUCCESSFULLY. They even gave me a 4% raise in March. Apparently it didn't help my depression.

We get to May and my supervisor takes away the programming tool used to program the platform I am working on (embedded processor). I complain and they say I am not getting it back. In my head I should have seen this as a fucking RED FLAG and pushed back.

Then in July the CTO says I need to have my code finished for the new platform in one month. I tell my supervisor I don't think I can (should have spoke up about the programming tool because I CAN'T TEST ANY FUCKING CODE!) He says: "I think you can do it!"

So I am trying to code blindly on a platform I can't test the code. I get to August and report I am testing code on Linux because I have no way to test on the platform. Apparently the CTO doesn't like this. So he starts sending people to walk by my office to "spy" on me because he suspects a character flaw. I don't realize this is happening until after the fact. Apparently I am on my phone too much (which is not typical, but I suspect my depression fucked me here).

I get called to a meeting with HR and my supervisor. They are firing me for performance and violating policy of using my phone outside of break times. This is August 14th. I am compliant and don't make a scene (it won't help). My supervisor is crying and the CTO made him fire me and sign everything.

The CTO also made a statement about how I was never deserving of the job title because I was never creative enough or good enough or some shit. This is the same guy that praised my past solutions for creativity and unique ways of solving the problems. The dude flat out lied and rewrote history. I even found a review from 2022 saying I was good at the role. Also, the dude gave me the damn job title. Up until this point I respected the guy. Now, I have lost all respect for him. It is one thing to fire for cause. It is another to lie about it sell the point.

On the way out the door my supervisor offered to be a reference for me. Several other people I worked with offered the same and couldn't fathom why I got fired. People I worked with for 7 years.

So I get thrown into the shittiest job market in the last 20 years. I can't find anything online or local. My fucking degree is a shit tech degree. So even though I can write decent software nobody wants to consider me because there hundreds of thousands of out of work SWEs on the market. I was already trying to recover from working at a shitty startup after losing a decent job due to a layoff. This was also affected by my un-diagnosed bipolar at the time. I made poor financial decisions because of some of my rare manic phases.

Unemployment from DOL finds that I was not at fault for being fired. They determined the company applied inconsistent policy on cell phone usage. Which is true to an extent. I have seen people take a lunch for 2 hours watching movies. Saw another dude sleep for 2 hours. Snoring and everything. But unemployment has no power other than giving me unemployment. Which isn't enough.

So now I am 3 months into job search and I find out that as much as 60% of the job postings on LinkedIn are fake. So there is a good chance that all of the jobs I applied for are fake.

My wife has a business, but it won't be enough when savings run out in 6 months. Because of the shit market I can't get a fucking job doing anything it seems.

I am tired, and the bullshit keeps piling up. I realize the only way I can survive is to create some kind of business.

I know, my perception of what happened is my perception. But if I was ever a valued employee they would have asked "What is wrong, and how can we help?" Instead I find out the CTO had harbored ill will toward me and NEVER FUCKING TOLD ME! I had asked for feedback in the past about my work and was told it was good work. I asked: "Am I too slow." The CTO said: "Your a little slow, but I don't have to worry about your code." Yet when they fired me they said I was getting complaints from other departments. But guess what? They NEVER FUCKING TOLD ME. This is the most sadistic way I have ever heard of managing people. Hold them to a standard that you never tell them about. I should have been clued into this when they fired the last guy. They never told anyone he was gone. I asked the CTO why they never told anyone. He said something about that is how that works. This is some serious mind fuck shit.

Had bad depression on Friday and Saturday. Really really really bad. Like planning stupid shit bad. Stupid shit in my life. Whatever...

So my friend says he doesn't feel well unless he uses St. Johns Wort. I used to use it 10 years ago, but kind of forgot about it. It did help. Well now I use risperidone to manage depression with bipolar. I got some wort and took it sunday. Huge difference in 3 hours. Way TOO high response. I already posted about this before.

Today I go see Dr to check if this is okay. I told him I don't want to stop. It seems to have leveled out. He said risperidone with wort can produce mania. However, he said reduce amount of wort to 1 every other day. So it won't have as high of peaks. Cool cool. A solution that doesn't cost an arm and leg. Also a doctor who listens. We had a lot to talk about. I would golf with him if I knew how to golf. Yes, he is that cool.

He told me a funny thing last time I was there. He said you are old enough to need a prostate check, but they do them chemically now. Then he says, but for $20 we can work something else out. Anyway, I like him.

I also noticed before this that caffeine wasn't doing shit for me anymore. But today I had a low kick espresso coffee (1 cup). Wort + risperidone + caffeine is different world now. So I gotta be careful of caffeine now too.

For a long time I was so depressed and didn't realize it. I was hoping I wouldn't wake up in the morning. I don't know how I got to this point. I have great things going for me. So I am making lists of warning signs I experienced when I was very low. Probably going to get some counseling too.

I knew I needed to improve things on some level, but no motivation to do so before this week. I bought a treadmill intending to connect it to my computer and control it. Treadmill has been sitting in a room at my house since january untouched. I keep buying electronics and never setting them up. I don't even know if they work. Just stupid shit like that.

If you are in the shit, then talk to someone. If you don't know you are in the shit then ask someone. If you have to shit all the time you are probably @b2plane.

Seriously people. You are worth the trouble of finding out how to fix your shit.

Anyway ManicOne out.

How do I make money through humor?
I am getting better at amusing myself.

For instance. I get take and bake pizza from Papa Murphys. The pizza says to cook at 425 or 450. I always cook it at 420 at what I have determined to be "perfect" times. So a Papa Murphys pepperoni is to be cooked for 11 minutes at 420 F. Literal perfection with not too dark crust, and not too light. All my homies says it great.

So if you work a remote job would you create a virtual machine to act as the device which connects to any remote employer systems? It seems like that would be ideal to keep personal separated from company data and software.

I suppose it depends upon employer requirements.

Been looking into my health issues. Seems I might have liver toxicity or some shit caused by a medication I take. Was looking at what liver toxicity would appear as in symptoms. I think I have a few of those. So I will be getting with my doctor about this. On one page it said acetaminophen could cause liver toxicity as well. I don't take that, but the: "When to see a doctor" had interesting criteria:

- Loss of appetite.
- Nausea and vomiting.
- Pain in the upper stomach area.
- Coma.

The first 3 seem reasonable, but the "Coma" symptom is sketchy AF. Like who is going to see their doctor about a coma? lol /s (in case it isn't obvious, for the autists)

How do you change password on devrant? I am looking at all the options and all I can do is delete the account. Is it hidden somewhere? I have been looking at the items on the right.

I am on webbrower.

@Lensflare, your bots are doing pretty good. I will see a spam, then I refresh and its gone. Definitely makes this place more tolerable. Are your bots keeping up? Any fallen warriors?

So we have a guy (Bob) leaving Friday. I am leaving him a secret admirer note and a usb drive. But in order to appreciate this I have another story to tell.

There used to be a guy (not Bob) that worked here once upon a time. He found a usb drive on his desk one day. It was loaded with naked images of another employee that was a guy (also not Bob). Also not Bob made a play, and miscalculated in the fact that not Bob was not amenable to his advances. So also not Bob ended up losing his job.

This brings us back to the story of Bob. He is leaving Friday. I am leaving a note he will find tomorrow morning that says:

"Bob, sorry to see you go. From your secret admirer."

I drew some hearts and a smiley face. As well as writing down a phone number. But of course the phone number is Ed's number.

Okay, I mentioned a usb drive. The usb drive is labeled "MISSYOUBOB". It has a folder on it named "My Photos". In this folder is pictures of goats.

I also sent this link to Bob:
https://youtube.com/watch/...

Never really had issues with Java, but this is so funny to me.

To date, the high score for toilet seat slams is 5 in one day. Not sure we will ever beat that score.

Didn't realize how disgusting Facebook was. If a girl removes her profile picture they have determined this person hates their look. So they start spamming them with makeup ads. If a person is suicidal they start spamming them with other ads they think are relevant.

This guy brought this to my attention:
https://youtube.com/watch/...

He seems to be in the trenches against, or reporting on right to repair. Not quite sure. I think he makes some interesting observations about how tech is weaponized against consumers.

We need to come up with a coding version of this. Where is a place that coders fight all the time? Some place notorious for this? We fight here, but I wouldn't compare devrant to a waffle house.

There are advantages to being really hungry and having some sensory issues. I went and got tacos from the taco bus today. I sat at my desk to eat them. I was really hungry today.

As I started eating them I could feel the hot of the salsa causing all my nerves in my mouth to really trip out. I could taste the meat, the sauce, the tortilla, and the cheese at a heightened sensation. As I was chewing the first few bites I literally shook a bit as the smorgasbord of pleasure sensations shot through my mouth. I could feel my eyes rolling back in my head. I didn't know one could have a mouthgasm. The sensations were so intense.

I have had this happen before, but never this intense or memorable. I felt like I would have been embarrassed to eat like this in front of other people. If this is something I can repeat I would be inclined to starve myself to make myself extra hungry to experience this again. What a nice surprise for lunch. Nobody expects surprise mouth sex. (Idea of new Monty Python skit?)

I have to say I would have to leave an anonymous review for the taco bus if I were to relay the mouthgasm event. Is this the start of a new fetish? Now I am sensually attracted to tacos. Well done taco bus, well done.

Inspired by netikras leg hair story reminded me of another hair story.

I was training to maintain a Bailey DCS system about 15 years ago. So I was working with the consoles and learning the software. My mentor at the time was talking to me about this. He was a heavy set fellow with a Phd in control theory. His eyes kind of naturally stuck out of his face a bit. I assume blood pressure of some sort.

mentor: "Hey, I can see you have working on the consoles on the system."

me: "How is that?"

mentor: "I found a curly hair." (I have curly hair when it gets longer.)

me: <me, saying this very slowly and deliberately> "How...curly...was...it?"

At this point he started laughing by rapidly blowing air out of his nose, his eyes bulged out further, he kept his mouth mostly closed. He was trying to be professional and not laugh at such base joke.

me: "I mean if its really curly it could be anyone."

Then he lost it and started laughing out loud. We never spoke about it ever again.

So today I have been feeling some sort of weird anxiety. Way beyond normal. It has slowly been building all day. Right now my ears feel hot, any kind of deviation from what I expect causes me to feel those anxiety pangs as I deal with this event. Driving has felt somewhat surreal today. I felt like I was in control the whole time, but cars being next to me made me extra jumpy.

I assume this is some kind of chemical shit going on that I don't understand. Just wish I knew what was causing this shit.

I feel behind at work and found out I have some rando elevated liver function going on. Nothing I can't logic myself through. What I am feeling does not feel proportionate to what is happening in my life right now.

Somebody suggested eating substitute bath salts...

So I have started looking into torrenting anime. In the past I just did it and didn't worry about it. But I have been hearing about internet carriers cracking down on this. Apparently my ISP has a tiered approach to this. They will notify and escalate all the way up to account termination. So I found that interesting. But that is not is what is most interesting. The interesting part was the AI response when I searched if my ISP will do anything:

What to do if you receive a DMCA notice:

1. Review the notice: Identify the copyrighted content in question.

2. Stop the infringing activity: Remove the infringing content from your devices and stop sharing it.

3. Consider a VPN and private trackers: This can help prevent future notices.

4. Contact CenturyLink: If you receive a notice, you may need to contact CenturyLink to confirm receipt or discuss the issue.

So with 3, the AI casually tells me how to continue breaking the law. lol

Lensflare! WTF did you do?!

https://reddit.com/r/Asmongold/...

I know some of Germany has been regressing, but this is terrible!

LOL

So the gaming industry was having huge profits (2024?), then they decided to layoff a bunch of people for "reasons", which displaced a bunch of people in the industry, who then became indies and are making good money, and people working for studios are salty about something they caused?

https://reddit.com/r/gaming/...

How cancerous do you have to be in your industry to be pissed at people trying to recover from your cancer?

"deprofessionalization" is this corporate speak for "doesn't have a cushy middle management job at EA"? I tried looking up the meaning and came away even more confused. You aren't a real gaming dev if you don't work for a huge studio?

Weird way to de-legitimize people who had to look for work elsewhere. The people who left or got laid off are escaping a shitscape for sure.

One thing I like to do online is obscure references to old movies. If someone says or does something in a forum that reminds me of a character from a movie I will say: "Hello <character's name>" If the name is recognized people will say so because it is a fun thing. Or they will respond with quotes from that character. Other people will join in on this too. An example of this is calling someone Raymond who estimates the exact number of things in a picture. This is a reference to the character Raymond from the movie Rain Man. This character was autistic and could could numbers of things instantly accurately.

However there is a chance the name is so obscure that it just sounds weird. Nobody gets it. Maybe they recognize it is a reference maybe not. This goes unnoticed and unheeded.

There is an even more remote chance that this is in fact the person's actual IRL name. However, if they are on a semi anonymous platform then they cannot confront the person calling them by that name because that would out them. Also, if they PM me about it they are outed again. So if this occurs this person will now wonder how the fuck someone knows their real name. Silent torture and wondering about it for a couple of days.

Learning embedded C/C++ on some TI chips. Need an httpclient for some specific tasks. The docs for the library are almost non-existent. No examples. I search and find examples from 7 years ago (none official). Wild.

There was another library I was using, but apparently it has internal issues and is not being updated anymore. I am using the "supported" library apparently.

Writing network code for desktop: easy peasy. Writing it for embedded: wtf is this shit?

Product idea:
Create an app to dox people. Then with poor coding skills dox the entire app community.

Spam Wars: Return of Jedi?

We have a new game my coworker Landon and I are playing. There are two high use restrooms near our offices. There is another coworker (male) that likes to use these restrooms. If the toilet seat is left up he will go into the restroom and slam the toilet seat down. I have no idea if he is angry or just oblivious when slamming the seat down.

The game is to see how many slams we can get in a day. We will go "reset" the board when nobody is in there. (Resetting being lifting the seat up.) The current record is 4 slams in one day. We nearly got 5 yesterday. The clock literally ran out and there was no overtime yesterday.

Yes, this is a stupid game. We laugh our asses off every time we hear the seat slam down. We are taking friendly bets as to when the seat or the bowl breaks from the repeated trauma.

Note: the slamming coworker is in a wheel chair. AITAH?

Unofficial slogans for programming languages:

Javascript - JustShitting out frameworks every week.

Python - Shit programmers become slightly less shit and call themselves "data scientists" here.

C# - We know we are better than you, and even though we don't need to say it, we will say it anyway.

Pascal - The only recognized version of Pascal is from one single vendor.

Haskell - Stay is school if you want to use this professionally.

Swift - (honestly don't know what to say here, Lensflare can fill in on this one.) Maybe this: The first rule of Swift club is we don't talk about Apple club.

Java/Kotlin - We are in everything, including your mom's vibrator.

C - The rest of the programming world doesn't exist. Especially in embedded. Happily using K & R compilers for 3 decades.

C++ - We will pretend to care about the rest of the programming world, but like C, we will do whatever the fuck we want. or, Being held back by the ABI for at least a decade.

Rust - I feel bad for you for using other programming languages.

These are probably highly inaccurate, mostly just wanted to talk about Java being in your mom's sex toy.

Gaming is starting to look like it is mimicking the movie industry. People paying new game prices for fucking reskins of old games. What a shit show. It is bad enough when movies are so formularic its just trash. But now gaming industry is doing this shit with reskins.

As always, even with new original titles or reskins or sequels. Wait for the $5 Steam sale in 5 years. If it didn't hold up and garner a community, then it was probably shit to begin with.

I almost never watch movies anymore. Filled with garbage content now. I hope hollywood dies and never comes back. Sick fucks.

Why does big gaming have to follow that stupid ass model? At least in gaming you have indies that are trying not to be absolute shit.

"Bitcrack Recovery Experts"
How I imagine their logo to look:

Was replacing the water bottle at the water cooler. Thought it would be funny to make a cartoon about it being an office workout routine. Generated this image, but realized it could make a funny coding meme instead.