Week : 92 (Year 1 )

I am tired, guys. Mortgage, EMI—I have to keep up.
I wanna exit this loop. I am stuck. How are you gonna spend this weekend?

Question : What’s something you still don’t understand as an adult?

last Weekend : https://devrant.com/rants/17187723

Most of maths and physics, and by implication most of everything.

Women. Humans. Body language, facial expressions etc.

Marketing.

How anyone could think a language with significant whitespace is easy to use.

- No Plans.

- Quite a lot.

1. painting
2. affection

1. Working on Snek. I spent three days on something that I finished for 90% within a hour.
2. Why still people watch more pewdiepie than SidTheITGuy.

1. At a public pool with the kids

2. why we humans neither can stay alone for long nor peacefully together

I am apparently a mystic now

dunno if I'm any good at it

sooooo much to do

you may be happy to know nothing ever dies. this may also be a horrifying prospect for some though as well

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also I ended up in the hospital and was in a coma for like an hour and I guess some doctors actually took me seriously this time. got another spinal tap and that was quite painful but at least basically no horrible headache after. apparently I have lesions all over my brain. EEG helped me think better / more lucid and gave me back ability to feel my nerves again even though EEGs are not supposed to stimulate your nerves. as if anybody knows anything though

guess I'll just wander around one foot in the spirit realm until I figure things out

they gave me a doctor who specializes in multiple sclerosis but they said it's too early and my symptoms aren't bad enough for that to be it but they're checking for brain cytokines anyway. I was taking a lot of anti brain cytokines meds though...