I think most devs have burnout. I do. lol

I had but got help from my company and got sick leave. I hope you have the same possibility? Talked to your boss or HR?

I think for any profession, you have to absolutely make the separation between "passion" and "business" side of it.

A guitarist can riff out solos in his house for 6 hours straight and still want to do it the next day. That's passion.

But if that same guitarist is told to wake up at 7 am everyday and play for 5 hours straight and receive a paycheck for it every month, that guitarist will start to resent the career choice and eventually face burnout.

The same goes for programmers/devs.

I have no idea what burnout is

I do know what PTSD is and actually it has the same symptoms as burnout

so maybe burnout is self-induced PTSD where you're the villain instead

but in literature burnout is literally when you're working for people who betray you or something like that. took me years to find that and I'm probably bastardizing it. fuck I never wrote it in my notes cuz I found it before I had my notes system

ok enjoy my stream of consciousness I guess

Sir

I am a robot

@jestdotty Burnout is a popular racing videogame for the Xbox and... jk.

Burnout: 'To cause to fail, wear out or become exhausted from overwork'.

Causes: Continuous high pressure, like a plateau on the highest Y-axis coordinate.

Other causes: sh*tty management, ignorance from upper management

Symptoms include mental and physical ailments

Other symptoms: You come to work dreading your work, and you hate it with a deep passion, wanting to be doing anything else but this, feeling trapped, etc.

Good to hear on the notes. : )

I enjoy your stream of consciousness, as it becomes input for mine. You have changed the world.

Burnouts are not fun :(

After the first one I developed a lisp took years to disappear

@CaptainRant technically true

but I think you can only burn out if what you're doing isn't what you wanna be doing then

high pressure is fine... if you're into it. you can totally destroy your body, stay awake for days, extremely focused, reactive to disasters every minute, and you won't burn out, as long as what you're doing is what you wanna actually be doing at that moment

... I find i can't force myself to do things. it feels like garbage and then I can't even begin doing it in the first place. my heart has to be in it. maybe this something like, "I agreed to give effort to make your company work, but now you're crossing my boundaries and asking for more effort from me than I was willing to give". I did feel that once I guess, though taking a vacation wasn't going to make it stop. management had to change

@jestdotty Burnout is accelerated (lol) when you are doing things you don't want to be doing, with the added bonus of your colleagues making work a living hell.

I'm not into high pressure.

Yes, I am like you as well in that regard.

@CaptainRant high pressure is fine I just gotta be into it

the pressure feels high when attention and skill required is high. if you have expertise regular things you do other people will think are "high pressure"

though if someone is throwing their emotions at you I hate that shit. like they think it's high pressure so it amps me up. even if they're wrong and it was a breeze. but they keep fearmongering me endlessly regardless. grrr