Missing a meeting because I was reading devRant. Worth it.

$149???

What no one told me was, as a senior resource how much context switching I need to do.
It's not even 12pm and I have been in 5 meetings, about 4 different projects
-- streaming platform but blockchain (Node, Golang) > planning + deployment issues meeting
-- goodreads but lighter > frontend approvals and ideas
-- custom node module development in C++ for internal db > debugging
-- SD card ETL tool > estimations and planning

I got some old piece of shit computer from my cousins, they wanted me to retrieve the old pics on it so I did and now I don't know what to do with it.

I spent the day cleaning years of nasty ass dust off of it and wiped the whole case clean + new thermal paste.

Then I was like why tf am I doing all of this effort, this piece of crap has a single core pentium cpu with a whopping 512 MB of Ram and an 80 GB HDD with the worst cpu cooler mounting systems I have ever seen.

I was thinking of installing something like antix linux with pihole on it but the logical thing to do should be to just get a raspberry pi with has a much smaller form factor, performance and is a lot quieter so idk..

my luck is terrible

woke up this morning to a blizzard. I love snow though. had to walk middle of the road because the sidewalks had a meter of snow. so fun. tons of people shoveling their cars, interrupts to their day and awkward problem solving (love it!), even saw some people traversing the city in snowshoes... never seen Canadians not magically clear snow instantly!

got my stuff, came home, showered, put coffee on to make, decided I was gonna do a lot of laundry and clean the place. was listening to podcasts, ate cake and coffee, went nuts cleaning the apartment. even did some impromptu gardening because my plants needed some TLC. my muscles were exhausted and it was awesome

... got a new blanket on Valentine's day from the boyfriend. well turns out it's flammable or something. messed up my drying machine. ended up messing up the laundry load and just putting up clothes to dry hanging... lame. tried to fix the blanket best I can wtf.

... but while sweeping and trying to make sure the drying machine was adequately vented out... my phone slipped out of my hoodie pocket and dropped on my toe... and cracked in half

I am in despair now, irrationally

I also feel irrational fear on the matter

the phone works perfectly fine... there's just a crack across. sensors all good, visuals all fine. but noticing the air bubble in the screen protector, the tiny crack in the correct lighting, just makes me feel like such crap

feel so cursed and like everything I touch breaks. my laptop is also broken... a screw fell off the corner. I just feel so cursed. grrrr. and I don't get the irrational fear. now the reminder on my phone screen... this phone slips out of everything, I've had it fall often, but I guess because this time it landed on my toe and not flat on the screen the weight distribution made it crack. probably next time it slips somewhere it will break entirely 😔

just irrationally in fear, grief, whyyy 😭

So today I was trying to get a java program to run in Linux that needed a bat file to run in Windows. I was looking at the file and didn't know what it would take to do all the commands in Linux. So I said fuck it and had my chatgpt account do the conversion. It actually did it perfectly and replaced Windows specific commands with Linux equivalents. It reworked the data and set environment variables correctly. It also ran the java program.

Unfortunately I think the Java program had made assumptions about the environment and used hard coded Windows style paths. Rather than using some paths in a filesystem generic way. So it just excepted when trying to read files that were there, but had wrong slash in filename.

It was a good test though. I may have chatgpt take a whack at other scripts I don't want to take the time to look up syntax.

ngl, I'm still giggling about Sam Altman's response about Elon. The delivery was perfect.

"Any language is memory safe if you don't give a shit anymore"
- Tsoding

Yep, starving myself feels easier if I eat something. My body does notice if I fast, but it completely misses a huge caloric deficit.
I get more weight drop by eating two eggs a day (and nothing else) than when I fast. I have no idea why.
Anyway, I decided that eating about 400 calories a day will get me to my destination faster than not eating at all, just because it's more sustainable.

I was listening to an interesting lecture recording, but threw the entire thing out the window once my "umm" meter ran out and gave errors.

Stop saying "umm" in every fucking sentence! 🤬

When negotiating salary do you ask for the max in the range they provide? If not what’s the best strategy

Day 19 of starving myself to death challenge.

I’m planning to fast again. That deep relaxation with zero twitching is the sensation I crave so much.
It’s 9:00, and I have the entire day ahead of me. Wish me luck.

I can't receive packages, nothing to do about it. If I want a package, I have to choose a drop off location in city center. Totally fine.

But now, I ordered new internet and ofcourse, they assume that your address is the place where it should be delivered and there was no place to change it. Fine, I will contact them after order.

But then, how to contact? You get a chatbot with only freaking predefined choices. "Questions about status of your order?". Etc. No fuckers, I'm sure it's doing fine. Gave up. Went to calling them.

You choose all wrong unrelated options until the automatic phone bot get stuck before you get an employee on the line. Thank God - that went fairly quick.

But it's bizar right, that you kinda have to crash an automatic phone bot by providing weird unrelated answers before you can ask your question?

Result: they can't change my address and thus it will go to delivery point end of the day if they can't deliver so I can pick it up one day later (tomorrow). Smol grr. But while said being unable to to deliver, they'll try it anyway 😁 Efficiëntcy 😁

Today's debugging session ended with 75 breakpoints set. Personal best!

I have noticed that most of the mentally ill posts on here are from Javascript devs.

Day 17 of starving myself to death challenge.

Yesterday was… different. As I already said multiple times, I do eat from time to time, but yesterday I decided to fast.
By the evening, my body was completely exhausted. Couldn’t really stand on my own without holding onto something.
Then I laid down and got ready for sleep.

Because my body had zero energy, for the first time in 15 years it wasn’t twitching. It twitches all the time: I have restless legs syndrome, but it’s not just legs for me but the whole body. I can’t stress this enough how much I twitch every day. But right then and there, my body was calm.

As my brain was shutting down and falling asleep, I felt euphoria unlike anything I have ever experienced. I was in heaven. Calm body, empty mind.

I want to say it was worth it, and I probably will do it all again someday.

In the meantime, on I go, without fasting, motivated more than ever!

Needed to show dad something on my PC, realized I needed to install something, was about to.
Dad: "Which Linux are you even using?"
Me: (Oh boy) "Ummm, currently I'm on Slackware... 😬 😅"
I can literally see the intense pain forming on his face as he copes with it, takes like a minute to recover from the mental damage I just inflicted on him and fucking yells (paraphrasing)"Slackware?!?! Really?? That is literally the first Linux I used back in *1993*" in a semi-desperate tone of surprise.
So yeah, that was funny. Gave my poor dad emotional damage today.

I am, SO sorry, dad xD

When you quit your job but have to work your notice period. Fuck this shit.

When you're ready to leave work but you still got 8 hrs left because you just got there.

A backend dev just told A frontend dev via slack that documentation is not necessary for backend and provided a backend PR for backend feature the frontend dev needed, he said the implementation is easy, am I dreaming or what the he'll is going on here 😩😩

Guess what ? the entire backend has no documentation 🤣🤣🤣🤣, just search the PRs you frontend freaks 😜, I feel sorry for my friend 🤣🤣🤣

At 14, my grandpa had a boyscout trip to Britany, france. He met my grandma near a fountain, they exchanged their address and started communicating.

They exchanged letter for ten years. In the meanwhile, she had married a man and had a child. But the husband unfortunately died of tuberculosis.

So they met 10 years later, at the same fountain, and he brought her to belgium to spend their life together.

RIP bonne maman you were the best

Hug your parents while you can :'(

Solely because I hate being told no and not because I feel strongly about the subject, I tried asking my self-hosted deepseek-r1:14b instance about a forbidden topic only to be met with the expected refusal to answer the question.

It fought me, but I am my father's son and was able to get the answer after only a few attempts. You just have to be creative with your requests.

Y'all ever have a project that's going great until you get about 80% in then the client starts getting all clienty?

Emailed a few recruiters last week. More or less immediately started getting a load of casino spam.

Clearly this is just a coincidence and that reputation for being a sleazy bunch of pimps is entirely undeserved.

LinkedIn is mostly cringe but not always...

I'm a proud man, but I'm not such a fan of my own farts that I can't admit when I maybe should have listened to other people's advice earlier.

After having been convinced of the scope of impact of AI by someone I respect, I started playing with the Jetbrains AI tools. I am impressed at its ability to process my code and give actually helpful input and to consolidate documentation into a form that is concise and helpful.

I finally get what people mean when they say it saves time.

A couple things that truly warmed me up to it is, one:
I wanted to know if I could return a string, float array, whatever, from c++ to a python script. I was assured the answer was yes, but I just COULD NOT get it to work, so I gave up on it. I asked the question to the Jetbrains AI (4o in this case) and it gave me what I needed, and now I can return a string from c++ to python no problem. There are a lot of little questions like this that I gave up on that I now have to explore again, which is both exciting and annoying, because I already have a thousand hobbies.

And two:
I am working on an html email. It's a mess of tables and text and inline styles. Compared to the markup I'm used to writing, it's tedious to trudge through to make even simple changes. I was able to successfully instruct it to make a specific copy change, while respecting the document's indenting, all on the first try.

I will forever maintain that it will enable a generation of drones that don't understand how to do simple things and will atrophy the skills of otherwise capable people that use it as a crutch.

I will also always maintain that its foundation is built on mass theft and is a monument to the uneven application of intellectual property protection laws. But with DeepSeek coming out and having done the same thing to them, I find myself enjoying the turnabout. I'm also amused that I coincidentally jumped into the pool right as things got interesting.

All that said, as a reference tool, like Google and Wikipedia used to be, it's not the force of pure evil I held it as. It is actually very useful and if used responsibly on an individual level, can be an amazing productivity tool and can even teach its users new things.

You know shits fucked when the sysadmin whips out the serial adapter!

So I onboard this guy on the project. One week in we worked on a task. There was a socket hang-up error. After a lot of debugging, I realized the issue was the value being sent over RPC to the API. Resolved in a huddle with the guy to show him how I debugged and found out.

2 weeks later, the client uses the API elsewhere, and runs into the same error, opens ticket. The new guy picks it up. After spending a day, says he can't find the issue, let alone reproduce it.

I have to jump in.

My guy, we just went through this recently. How much did he accumulate in 2 weeks since we did that, that he can't recall the fix

Okay, maybe I'm unlucky, but I find macOS to be extremely buggy and inconsistent across the board compared to Windows.
The "it just works" slogan hasn't been true in my case.
Like, there's always some dumb issue hindering me.
For example, I can't seem to resize a window by its edge on my second screen in macOS. It just doesn't work.
Of course, Windows isn't perfect, but it works without a hitch in my case.
Finally, the memory swapping issues that lead to lag.
On a typical day, I have two instances of IntelliJ running, Android Studio or XCode, and two Edge + Mozilla, and Docker. 32GB should be able to handle this smoothly. This works fine on my 32GB Windows workstation.
On my 32GB M2 MacBook Pro however, I have to constantly close some programs because of lag.
Not to mention, memory fills up really quickly. I essentially turn on the MacBook and 18 GB are in use. WTF!