Didn't realize how disgusting Facebook was. If a girl removes her profile picture they have determined this person hates their look. So they start spamming them with makeup ads. If a person is suicidal they start spamming them with other ads they think are relevant.

This guy brought this to my attention:
https://youtube.com/watch/...

He seems to be in the trenches against, or reporting on right to repair. Not quite sure. I think he makes some interesting observations about how tech is weaponized against consumers.

ask AI for some sample code cuz lazy

it's busted

come back pointing out the busted

it says I'm close but I fucked up here and here

I DIDNT FUCK UP RAAGHHH

every time. I am getting triggered by inappropriate blame of an AI now. sigh

when humans do it it drives me up the wall. I'm not ok being someone's scapegoat. you can call me lazy but you can't say I made those mistakes. I'm just too lazy to read the docs because they're ridiculous so I want the AI to find the specific use case in the docs for me... siiigh

I find your lack of capitalism to be... disturbing

Company is not doing well so decided to go job hunting again, or rather respond on linkedin. Didn't think I cared that much, but I have been unable to finish the work I need to do, something that I should be able to do in a day at most. Half of me is "remember you don't care" the other half is "why are such a slacker, useless piece of shit"

Anyway, first call with an actual recruiter was positive

skipped my meds yesterday night by accident and just got the best sleep I've had in a month. yeah fuck these things

and they lied to me and told me they were sleeping meds the first time even tho that was unnecessary to be doing and they're not prescribed for sleep

I hate the medical field. that's so fucking gross

Men, fak dis shit. Companies want highly experienced developers, even as Junior dev. Hellooooo, I'm medium-skilled. lol. I started out lacking some skills, then moved onto vendor-locked companies who monopolized and minimized my learning time, ending up learning jack shit in the process. That's how you get stuck. lol.

And on we go.

downside of being magically healed by people is I don't have the brain to learn magic (maybe it's the drugs honestly...) so I'm ravenously dependent on this guy to do another round so I can gain more brainpower

fucking hell

I don't like dependence

also every time he does this I feel like I've been sutured for 1-3 days. and I gotta be careful and not pull at them. how the hell do you do that with a brain? that's gonna be so fucking bad. "just don't think at 145 iq horsepower" tehe.

AND he says it's experimental. and what the fuck he says he's only this good at healing due to past mistakes... I might end up a vegetable. but I'm already a fucking vegetable. fuck

upside, he fixed my nervous system back to having endurance for emotions and stress so I'm not fucked up from thinking all this. yay some resilience for once after 3 years of hell

one guy thinks I survived a paradoxical collision of time magic. that doesn't make sense why the shit would I have hit a fucking time traveling universe. then he changed his mind thinking failed possession. this makes more sense to me but who the fuck would've wanted to possess me. fucking Christ. and could they not have melted my nervous system having tried to do so. mean as shit.
I still think it was a hex. I think it was a death hex actually.

thanks for coming to the weirdest shit ever Ted episode

my tarot cards basically say good luck, too. nothing happened. you had a bunch of energy, you made a bunch of money, now you can sit at home and think about stuff, effect the world with yourself as you see fit, and either be a judgemental prick or a righteous prick. this is basically a retirement plan.

A manifesto

15.30

Time to start working

As a sovereign citizen, I hereby declare war on the Federal Republic of Germany.

Thank you for your attention to this matter.

2 margaritas, 1 litre of beer and two rejection letters later. Tuesdays are great.

fucking code tests are retarded. if you just want a programmer, hire a fucking gpt instead. stop wasting my time. hr people send the most retarded emails ever.

I love sex, drugs and rock and roll.

Actually I don't like rock and roll that much

And sex is all right, but it's a bit overrated.

Actually i just love drugz

I'm going to hunt down copilot and cut off his piscololo.

Who's with me?

I haven't coded in so long I'm actually starting to miss it

Every damn time I visit the server rooms for tunnel infra, I feel like I just entered the backrooms. Endless winding stairs, rooms that appear out of nowhere, doors galore, labels in ancient hiroglyphs and time travel are very common.

Piratesoftware's "2D Raytracing" code is just shitty radial light diffusion with collision checks. The worst part is he's individually checking each pixel and manually adjusting the lighting pixel by pixel😭 🙏

Does anyone else feel like Piratesoftware's content is just dedicated to people starting out with coding and game dev? Should this piece of shit be the person these newbie devs look up to? What a fucktard. This is the dude who has "DECADES OF INDUSTRY EXPERIENCE" hacking windmills and sending emails like "please let me hack you" in blizzard

I wish dev work was about the tech, the logic, the architecture

but annoyingly it's always about people

I used inline C in perl to write inline assembly.

I deserve death.

Sprint planning, we spot a risk for one of the stories: An old client wants a new feature that relies on a third-party component that has not been included in our integration tests for the last 2 years.

The risk: It's probably not compatible with the new version of our system, if that's true, we'll need to make changes to our system before starting to work on the new feature, and setup integration testing.

Management: - Are you sure it's not compatible anymore?
Me: - No, we would need to bring both systems up and test if they work, there's no automation for that right now.
Mangement: - If you have not checked it's not a risk.
Me: (o_O) ? Whatever, I've warned you.

2 Days later: Our system does not work with this third-party system anymore, we can't finish the feature this sprint.

Management: (☉_☉)

Job hunting and interviewing disgusts me.

I feel like I am in some kind of dating nightmare (and I hate dating). It's really weird trying to sell yourself to some company and they judge you based on how you think, how you talk, how your professional life has been up until now. I also judge them based on my professional values.

It makes me feel really awkward to talk to people trying to sound all calm and professional when I am kind of dying of nihilism inside. Tired of having to get to the stages of interviews where I need to do some idiotic tech assessments that are irrelevant to the job spec. Some were fun though.

Thankfully no AI interviewer fuckery yet, but if I do run into such a thing, I'm gonna pull out and expose the company that does this.

Getting close to final stages with some places which seem decent enough to sell my time to, and salaries are so much higher than what I currently get paid (fuckin peanuts).

I just want to become a mushroom at this point.

B: 'Being in $city is a requirement for the job because it's an 'on-site' job. Salary is x.', * Smiling face. *, 'Nice, huh?'
Me: * Thinking, fine - slightly more than before, but new city, so should probably be the roughly same as before given the $city is more expensive. *
Me: * I invest in the move. Turns out new apartment costs 2x as much as the previous one. No time to look for another one. Fine - I'll be doing what I love, once again - I'll manage until proving my skills. *
* 2 months of probation pass. *
B: 'I'm happy w/ your services. When renewing contract, we'll switch to a different type, though, because (...)' /* Some bullshit - read - he doesn't want to pay the overhead. */
Me: * The move wiped the savings, can't say 'No'. *, 'Fine'.
* 5 months pass. *
B: 'I'll be closing the office due to imminent price spike. We'll move you to WFH. I'm fine w/ you returning to your original home.' /* Read: Salary will remain the same. */,
* My bills rise due to WFH. *,
* Costs of living receive an unwelcome big spike. *,
* Time passes until contract renewal. *
B: 'I value you as an employee. I would like to continue the partnership.'
* Offers no bonuses, no salary bump due to skills, !even cost of living adjustment. *

Ladies, gentlemen - you've just met my boss - no appreciation, because talk is cheap. Also - absolutely no accountability for the office being closed.

If ChatGPT calls my problem a "classic" or it's solution a "subtle quirk of <framework>" one more fuckin time I'm gonna be the first human to murder an AI

Imagine a workplace. A workplace that is planning a local event for tomorrow with deals and a free discount code for those who arrive.
Only thing is: everything is chaos, no one is taking responsibility for the event, no one communicates about changes or how the event is going to be.

Now you get a call off duty. You have to check a discount code that wasn't working. You were to set it up for the event. But apparently they decided to open the doors for the event TODAY. You get a call 5 minutes after the first. "Is it done yet?" NO. Because you have to FIX CODE and deploy changes because they don't have any staging environment, no proper testing environment and (best of all) development mostly connected directly to the production database.

This! This is my job.
I am so fucking mad.

I need courses on how to grow my spine even more and demand what should be fucking law at this point.
Or maybe just leave. I'm the only dev.. 😎

The average meeting: "I think that's a really great idea. Let's circle back on this and take a 60k view, leveraging the low-hanging fruit so we can identify you championed this technology".

Seriously? Championed? As if the other bs language weren't enough. And this is language that they use to convince clients. "My consultant championed A.I.". Are you fucking kidding me? It sounds ridiculous. Needless to say, we lost that client.

Opened a legacy PHP file from 2008.

No functions.
2,000+ lines.
Inline SQL.
HTML inside echo statements.
A single if (true) wrapping the entire thing like some cursed gift box.

At the top:
// Do not modify. Works perfectly.

At the bottom:
It writes to two databases. Only one exists.

Somewhere in the middle:
It sends an email…
to the client’s ex-wife.

I closed the file.
Rebooted my laptop.
Took a walk.
Still not okay.

Just recently discovered fcgiwrap.

It's a huge load off to be able to write a super simple script that can respond to a web request without having to deploy a whole application. I'm toying with the idea I could do that instead of using a whole GUI framework for local applications.

Job search isn't easy.

Not because there aren't any jobs, but because I am afraid of anything that seems remotely like my current toxic workplace.

Fack.

Your tasks are going slowly, let's have a meeting about it

Reading google revies of hospitals is one of my pet peeves. Like it is certainly not an indication to the hospitals quality. As there are mostly people reviewing who had a bad experience. Also a lot of hysterical people who are like: "Walked into the ER with minor headache. Was appalled at the wait time and left. Never going back there again. Worst service everrrr" or "The service woman at the front desk could neither give me a precise diagnosis nor where I had to go to get my second lobotomy."

Ssooo.. Turns out, I'm starting a new project in less than 2 weeks. Gotta go to Dublin for 2 weeks.

Fuck.
I'm not a traveling kind of a person...