The more i commit to taking care of my parents the more i fight insecurities from inside. What if I lost my job ? I can cope personally or discard any other person but my parent cant support themselves hence the insecurity.

hey, Tech job expecially is never guarantee anything can happen at anytime, then the pressure and cutting downs this have happen time and again which makes me think what is happiness for me?

I have desired to do this since I was young and saw how they worked hard to make sure I become who I am today, for me I am glad I could care for them and make them happy at their age now and in the other side I battle with insecurity which makes me wonder if I can say am happy.

I am getting to the conclusion that true happiness depends to the degree you decide to ignore uncertainties but yet plan against it which is crazy, am confused but all I know is if happiness depends on feelings then mine fluctuates between when am struggling to fulfill my responsibilities and when am ok to do it, it crazy am confused 😕