Uh, I was skeptical at first (years ago), but now I don't think I even remember the last time I went on stackoverflow. Past actual developer docs and ChatGPT, I never needed to google or search for anything, and I solve every stupid problem at 10x the speed I used to. I don't even shy away from admitting it to my juniors as their director. However, I've seen how they use it, turns out if you're a bad developer, you'll also be bad at prompting chatgpt to write what you need. You need to be good at.. LANGUAGE and PRECISELY and CONCISELY telling it exactly what you need. Case in point, someone who knows how SQL works under the hood asking for a complicated query vs someone who just wants to "get some columns out".

Yeah. I used to love YouTube, I even subscribed to premium for a whole of 2-3 years because there was still content I liked on there... but the way they display videos and the mediocre content that shows when you search or log on is an instant turn-off. Undistinguished, mainstream garbage. Bloated. Illusion of variety. The channels that show up feel like they generically generated their videos no matter how esoteric your search topic is. Sad, really.

@TheBeardedOne it's coming from a place of being sick and tired of offering multiple solutions to the dwindling user retention rate and having each one met with "but it won't work" "but it will take a lot of resources" "but we need more proof it will work" when there's absolutely nothing to lose. So, you're not missing out on much by not caring to keep up. I'm team cat now.

Meh, as someone who loves challenges and being at a fast-pace now that I developed my chops and rounded out my skills; I realize now that this is corporate code for "we don't know what we are doing so we will ask you to switch gears fast while requiring that you maintain deep focus at solo-forged tasks the same time". They want leadership qualities for junior pay, and they feel justified, because usually there are no results due to their risk profile.

@Hazarth yep, my main issue is when people do not add the folders and things they generated with random extensions to the existing gitignore (they're the same people who do git add .)

@Hazarth > "Oh well, I guess I want some chocolate, but I'm not going to get it"

That explains why I can last long without going to the bathroom after having needed to pee 3 hours ago.

@NeatNerdPrime lol that's what I did

@ScriptCoded they gave it a unique name and saved in a json :)))))

tech constipation

Management: Here's our Conflict-free Replicated Data store using local-first implementation of a collaborative process.

Also management: you are not allowed to collaborate, actually.

Also also management: enjoy the silence and the consistency though!

You're full of good ideas.

What understanding helped you regain this confidence? Can you share a bit more about your MVP experience? I'm curious!

It took me a while but I finally remembered when I stopped blogging: one year after wordpress introduced blocks, and I switched to tumblr (lol that was... short-lived).

I remembered cause I went back to blogging platforms, and I absolutely DESPISE the idea of "blocks", feels like they just threw on an arbitrary schema to a plain text file that just makes me do more work.

Not everything needs to be a "notebook"- and "wiki"-ready. Jeez. I miss it when things did one thing at a time.

I was overpaid in a country that underpaid everyone who was under-qualified-- but I was perfectly qualified, and now I'm underpaid (below median) in the HCOL area I've ever lived in: the bay area. And... I'm qualified for pretty much any role.

I felt richer in the former scenario. It sucks now.

Let me tell you this: everywhere you go, there will be someone doing a cooler, more bullshit job than you do, and gets paid more for it.

The only thing that matters is you win *somehow*: your job isn't that hard, if it doesn't too pay well. OR. your job is cool, if it isn't too relevant. OR your job pays you well for that area of living. OR you have a reason for taking on that job such as learning a skillset. OR your job is easy to switch out from.

You get my drift.

And then, you wake up every day, and do that job till you no longer have to.

This was the most intuitively sound thing I've read all week.

@sariel LMAO same.

OP, I asked GPT to point out the summary and key highlights in your story for fun.

"The key takeaway from this story is that paranoia and anxiety can be overwhelming and can have a major impact on our lives. It also highlights the power of imagination and how our thoughts can manifest into reality. The protagonist experienced a dream-like state in which their friend was using a Linux distro to trap creatures in the area around her neighbourhood, highlighting the power of the mind."

Does that check out?!

@NeatNerdPrime Also, perfect tldr. LOL.

@NeatNerdPrime Thank you! I picked up BJJ again, and it does wonders for my mental resilience lol. I would have been breaking down crying at day 1 if this was a year ago.

Is it better than this one?

I come back to this rant every once in a while to regain my sense of shared reality. Thank you so much for posting this months ago.

speaking of your phone charging shoes idea; you should do it. I often wear a pair of sandals from crocs with a mico backpack pocket lol. It fits my car keys, and a few items...today, I wished I had a tiny powerbank for quick charging.

Also, yeah, work from home really made the freak in me shine

>I'm functional enough to actually work

that makes one of us... lol

ah, you got a case of the "my mind cannot stop generating ideas to not work on" OCD, too?

@bigmonsterlover I abandoned the fork of the project that requires this of me, and decided to learn using your sources on my 4 weeks off to find a new job LOL. :D

Our fe stack is angular and react, and I learned the bare minimum to argue with our management to revise their decision w/ the platform team, so.. just as I expected: they all knew nothing, to the point where a simple understanding and a guess got them to lay off me for a whole week... man.

I genuinely wonder why companies bother hiring teams anymore.

I'm a lead dev and I stopped using Jira in our startup because my managers (the founders) made my life hell with expectations on top of my extremely modular-responsibility role.

My work is no longer visible, and I no longer care- so I'm quitting next month (taking a vacay first lol).

@ElectroArchiver That's legitimately a wonderful seed/idea for a project! I've always wanted "media/timer player" Frankenstein product because I weirdly like pomodoroing but not using timers, but maybe even a round of gaming.

p.s. I realize the irony in asking you to do a side project to solve both our problems in a post where you were venting about progress.....

I relate. I only started looking into it after I realized the lack of structure is making me inconsistent. I'm not American and only felt it after grad school. I agree, messaging is heavily branded. I read neuroscience journals and development theory instead, and it made sense.

Whatever people will call it in the future: ADHD or neurodivergence... it is a thing. As in, this pattern can be looked at in a brain scan. Creative problem solving and being mission-driven could be an indicator of neurodivergence. It also looks like learning new things gives us a disproportionate amount of dopamine vs neurotypicals. That's why we pivot to new systems. Does that also resonate with you?

If you're neurotypical - whatever that is - structure is a way to get you to do things, vs structure being just a parameter in a problem. It can be an interesting one, or one that makes you cry, lol. Structured environments cause us to be bored, so routine will often be a problem you're trying to solve.

This type of sentiment resonates with me a lot. Do you know if you suffer from hyperfocus/context switching executive dysfunction? If it feels like a chronic thing for you, with ups and downs, you likely have what the DSM calls "ADHD", or what child development theorist should call "trauma noise": an inability to context switch to what you believe is important for the longterm, because you are too busy feeling bad about the day-to-day attention seeking stuff. (I had ADHD diagnosis, and went through a lot of self- and other-therapy for CPTSD). It takes a long time to find ADHD youtubers who are not missing the mark-due to people interperting "I can't focus on horrible job but I also know I am bored of it" as ADHD (it's not).... BUT! I saw this on my feed the other day and I feel like it might be helpful:

https://youtube.com/watch/...

It's what I personally found touches on the pain point you mentioned. I hope it does help.

@PickleRick How do I gain access to the part that's still working on problems that matter using frameworks that are solid? Serious question..