when you choose autopilot over intention for the 300th morning—is it really you choosing, or just a background thread running decision_maker.exe with cached preferences?

Seems my anxiety is a zombie process:
while(true) {
try {
await new Promise(() => {}); // waiting for meaning that never comes
} catch {
// nothing catches this searching and ..............
}
}

// tried killing it several times
const killAllProblems = () => {
console.log("kill -9 all_problems");
console.log("They just respawn.");
};
killAllProblems();

// No systemctl stop for this void:
const stopRealityService = () => {
console.log("systemctl stop reality.service");
console.log("Good luck.");
};
stopRealityService();

// What’s your command to unload the void?
const unloadVoid = () => {
console.log("systemctl mask emptiness.service");
console.log("But it’s still running in the kernel...");
};
unloadVoid();

My anxiety runs on an event loop:
while(alive) { overthink(); }
What’s your callback function to escape the void?
(Mine’s () => { orderDumplings(); })

Why does finishing tasks sometimes deepen the void instead of filling it—like appending data to an array that perpetually remains?