Talking to ChatGPT 4o.
— Is Jimmy Page a pedo?
— Well, he is, but it was okay back then, so he kinda isn't.
— What? Are you…
— Sorry, bye.

there is an amphora at the bottom of the ocean that, if brought to the surface, will end the world

Still starving. Wounds and scratches barely heal. Everything seems so loud

The difference between me and you is that I won’t forgive her even if she chopped off her finger and brought it to me. Have you ever cried without sobbing? I just laid there, every muscle of my face stiffened, breathing through my mouth because my nose called it quits, tears pouring down, being absorbed by my pillow. Dear daughter, her avatar said, we love you the you are, and we accept you. I feel sorry for every time that I have wronged and victimized you. Even calling me daughter and not son, I mean how hard it could’ve been?

The issue was, she didn’t remember any details, while I remembered everything. I do relive all of that several times a day, month after month, year after year.

I went for a walk, and for the first time, I liked how my shadow looked. I’m getting slimmer. Yet, I don’t feel better inside.

The good thing is that it won’t matter.

You feel sorry for everything, but what for exactly? Because I remember all of it. Do you?

The biggest challenge of building a free energy device is figuring out where to hide the battery.
The biggest challenge of building an AI product is figuring out where to hide API calls to ChatGPT.

Alright, hear me out…
Circumventing tracking protection is sometimes okay!
Let me explain!
If user explicitly consented to tracking, why can’t I track them? They have tracking protection installed (as they should, and so do I), but when they click “Allow”, I still can’t load analytics. That’s not fair.
I will show the “Decline all” button loud and clear right next to “Allow all” and “Customize”, but I don’t want user’s adblock decide for the user. I won’t load anything until they explicitly allow me to. For all I know, they can have an adblock filter that blocks consent-seeking UI elements/popups (although mine is not a popup, I hate popups), and to me they will appear as unconsenting users. I’m fine with all of that.

But why can’t I track people who agreed that I can track them?
This is why I use my own analytics url that isn’t present in any anti-tracking blocklists.

My tracking does directly benefit both me and my users, and no one else. My users because it makes the product they pay for better at no extra cost, me because when my users are happy, I’m happy too. I want to put emphasis on “no one else” — I use self-hosted things that don’t send anything upstream. I own 100% of the data. I obviously don’t sell it, but I don’t share it either. People who say they don’t sell data all while using google analytics/meta pixel are clowns. Damn right you don’t sell data — you give it away for free. I don’t.

If you have kids, I wish they will never get sick.

you will never be clean.

Starving myself to death, day who knows which. Horizontal lines appeared on my nails. I've read that vertical lines are kinda okay, but horizontal ones… Well, let's see how it goes

Retoor's recent bot army fiasco is why we don't put AI in charge of anything. It wasn't a bug in her code, it was her AI misinterpreting her prompts while having access to the data bots act upon. Essentially, retoor's AI added a lot of legitimate users to the list of spammers, and the issue was in prompting, not in code.

Affirm: *makes a lot of money because it's literally on every website*
Also affirm:

why dying me has better skin than living me

Camel case can't be used in Postgres: table names are case insensitive. Pascal case can't be used too.
Kebab case is readable, but it can only be used in HTML, Clojure and probably some other lisps.
Thus, ugly-looking snake case is the most compatible casing.

These Wounds, They Will Not Heal.

accept fungi

The third most significant world altering scenario after ww3 and climate catastrophe is deglobalization, with countries closing their borders and moving production inland. I analyzed everything, and France seems to be the best place to live if it happens. Here’s why:
- It’s a democracy with strong culture of political opposition
- Strong economy
- It produces its own military equipment: Leclerc tanks, Dassault Rafale/Mirage 2000 fighter jets (and others), Mistral battle ships
- It has a very strong army, including the infamous foreign legion
- It can make its own passenger jets
- It produces a lot of food — enough to sustain itself many times over
- Great climate diversity
- Sea
- Nuclear energy. When gas/oil-exporting states like russia and middle eastern countries stop exporting, nuclear energy will make all the difference in the world.

Every other country that can compete in those categories fail miserably in one of them:
- Germany is a good all-rounder as well, but is too dependent on importing fossil fuels
- USA has the strongest economy and military, but it’s very divided
- China has a lot of resources, including production and nuclear energy, but it’s a dictatorship
- Russia is a dictatorship too, and a disfunctional one. It’s bad at food production too
- Nordic states are way too cold, and they get too few sunny days — keeping your body healthy might be a challenge. Also, no growing food there

Am I missing something?

On the day of my birthday, both Skype and Boris Spassky, the chess grandmaster world champion, died. Our metamodernist timeline is so fucking weird

Yeah, no daily starving to death updates anymore. Making the decision to starve came with a lot of drama, but it's resolved now — I accepted my fate and just carry on starving myself in silence. I'm back to no #2 club! I'm now the lightest I've been in years. Bad news is that some weird and obscure stomach pain appeared, and it comes and goes as it pleases, no matter if I eat/fast/vomit or not. It's killing me.

As blood rushes through my face, hundreds of tiny capillaries bursting under my skin create a beautiful freckles pattern that has to be seen to be believed.

This is what happens to me when I vomit. That’s a great way to get a striking look on a budget when I’m late to a party!

It’s not wise to play chess with a pigeon. It will throw all pieces away, shit on the board and tell everybody it won.

— There is a bug in prod!
— Omg, why aren't you fixing it yet?
— No, I'm just raising awareness!

age++! I now have 365 days to join club 27.

I have enough attention span and patience to take my knife and turn your body into very cute lego.

greetings, fellow humans! I am so enjoying being a human today.
So, anyway… Breathing, am I right?

Behold, dev-related two sentence horror.

“I died, and all I can see and feel is this terminal.”
“'ls' is not recognized as an internal or external command, operable program or batch file."

I didn't do it. I chickened out.
Fasting raises my heart rate. Not sleeping did raise it too. ODing on caffeine raises it as well. I decided that combining the three is a sure way to kick the bucket

Day 35 of starving myself to death challenge. I didn’t sleep and I’m wasted, so what does it mean? It means LETS FUCKING overdose on caffeine from diet Red Bull and Diet Coke, eat nothing and spend the whole day head down, death grips blasting, working on my project
Let’s hit derealization by sensory and mental overload 😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈
And by the evening… oh, come sweet sweet slumber

My next product will be eternal, like 1366×768 screen resolution. Heck, eternal like Python 2! Or like JavaScript itself. Either way, you may hate it all you want, but when it's out, y'all gonna shit your pants. NOBODY ever did what I'm about to do. I'm about to make me a living _and_ prove a point.

chess is the only thing saving me from becoming a becky from the trailer park