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@SidTheITGuy
1. It's not a drug. It's not addictive. It's a prescription medication that was officially prescribed to me.
2. I'm not "chill" without it. I'm severely depressed and paralyzed by anxiety and guilt. -
@SidTheITGuy In general, if you're mentally healthy and neurotypical, and you cannot do all of that, it's either bad sleeping schedule, motivation, or both. If someone like me cannot do it, it's a brain chemistry problem that cannot be solved by all the motivation in the world. It has to be treated with medications. By the way, my sleeping schedule is rock solid and immaculate.
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If you need it, you need it. No judgement on medical necessity.
I wish for you that one day, either all those things will be from the past and that you have the inner strength and calmness to live without.
We love you @kiki nonetheless you weird ass girl.
Keep posting those "did you know" articles ! I love those. -
@kiki I'm sorry if it felt ignorant of me to say that. Hey, I don't know you from adam, I will never get to experience what it's like being you, but only me lol. I'm high as shit rn on weed myself lol.
Sorry again. -
@SidTheITGuy Accepted. FYI, I don't do _any_kind of drugs, except nicotine. I don't do alcohol. I don't do weed. My freshly gained hint of normal life took years of desperate uphill battle, and it's still too fragile. I have five different medications, and no mind-altering substance will enter my body without my psychiatrist knowing about it. The stakes are just too high.
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Thanks for the reminder to take my meds. I forgot the last days..
Btw if you're happy with atomoxetine don't long for methylphenidate or amphetamine: In my experience those can be wonky, because of their short duration they might require multiple doses a day, which is super easy to forget (especially when you have ADHD) and then also can create an accidental un-fun peak (slight OD) if not timed very well (plus absorption also depends on stomach content & physical activity). -
@saucyatom hmmmm… useful info, thanks. I _never_ forget my meds. I have alarms on my phone that I NEVER ignore. I always have my meds on me at all times, including my prescription documents if someone has questions.
I'm okay with taking as many doses as needed, following the exact schedule needed to improve my mental health as further as possible.
I live with bipolar 1 (the strongest form of bipolar) plus autism plus adhd plus ocd. That's the official diagnosis. I went through hell, so if the only thing that's needed to avoid it is mere taking the right pills at the right time, I'm all in for that.
Too bad I'm severely limited by the legal framework of the country I currently reside in, but I'm making big strides to move to a more westernized country soon, for my mental health and my transition. -
@saucyatom more than that, if I find a safe way of getting rid of anxiety completely, even by a Pyrrhic victory of getting addicted to benzos for life, I'll take it. I don't care anymore. Everything in me that holds me back must be eradicated. I don't consider those things parts of me. I won't negotiate with them — fuck those who make Ted talks about learning to live with anxiety. Those things merely reside in my body temporarily, ready to be evicted.
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@saucyatom In my opinion, the biggest benzos-related setback of the health system is if I prescribe that guy something like Diazepam, that guy might go to a party, drink a lot of alcohol and die. Diazepam is a very serious tool that has to be treated with respect. You don't want to give it to people that don't respect it.
But I'm not like this. I don't consume alcohol in any shape or form, not even socially, not even when it gets hard, not even with friends, etc. For example, if benzos weren't compatible with nicotine, and nicotine was the only thing standing between me and curing my anxiety, I would quit for life that exact minute. I'm ready for big sacrifices to achieve big results. -
@kiki If only taking meds (on time) would completely solve my ADHD & anxiety!
But at least the meds enable me to (try to) improve.. -
@kiki Good luck re moving. It sucks if the system is designed to be in your way..
(btw Germany just relaxed the immigration rules and it should be quite easy to get a permit as an IT professional now. Finding a psychiatrist is hell though.) -
@saucyatom why is it hell?
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@kiki To find a psychiatrist you have to call various practices at specific times (different for each), wait in line and schedule a long time ahead. If you're really lucky you get an appointment in 6 months, but that's after hearing "we don't take new patients" about 100 times (if you're lucky enough that they pick up the phone at all). And that's if you have a diagnosis already, otherwise it's worse, as they might not do diagnosis. Plus the doctor might not know much about ADHD anyway, especially regarding adults..
However there's the option to pay out of your own pocket to get a diagnosis within a few months.
So to treat ADHD you have to do a bunch of things that are really difficult if you're prone to procrastination/avoidance and bad at scheduling and time management/reception.
My last Saturday (no atomoxetine):
- laid in bed
- watched youtube
My today's Saturday (yes atomoxetine):
- went to the store for food (leaving my home is a HUGE problem for me, can't overstate this)
- washed dishes
- swiped every room
- deep cleaned cat's litter box
- deep cleaned the toilet
- washed both sinks
- did the laundry
- cleaned all three of my laptops
- cleaned my monitor
- washed both mousepads
- took a shower
- reorganized the storage room
- reorganized the bookshelf (yes, it's singular, and I store quite a bit there: books, chargers, etc.)
I recommend Atomoxetine to everyone who's autistic/ADHD. It's a great option if you don't have access to Ritalin or Adderall. If they're illegal in your country (Russia, I'm looking at you), chances are that Atomoxetine is legal.
Can't imagine my productivity on something way stronger like Adderall. Soooo desperate to get it.
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