I think I'm in the sweet spot between where normal people can detect full autism and not see a spec of autism at all.
Most people just dismiss me as fucking awkward. They aren't wrong.
I mask myself 95% of the fucking time in general. I'm not a genius at anything. I'm not that fucking smart. But it's funny how soft people have become. How bad they interpret about morbid jokes or facts.
Also the thing that keeps me fucking puzzled is how people can support one fucking football team, politician or anything most of their life.
I mean.. shit.. Do you ACTUALLY agree with everything that much?
I know people who agrees 100% with their partner or anything else:
People being under someone elses thumb or fucking liars.

Felt good to let that out.
Have a wonderful whatever the fuck you have.

don't think it's autism

think it's you're an anarchist and everyone else is groupthinked by coercion

@jestdotty maybe you're right. I could be abusing the term 'autism' here. Could be abusing 'anarchist' as well.
Although the experience for me is the same.

@angerydev I and bf got called autistic but he knew what anarchy was and I didn't when we met

autism and ADHD is considered to have "defiance disorder" where you don't do what others are trying to force you to be doing, so they label you with psychiatric disorders to tell you that that's abnormal somehow and wrong

anarchy is actually a philosophy. that's just against coercion. so it's just an approach to life where you don't like others trying to exact their will on you and find such things to be inappropriate

Full disclosure I have ADHD diagnosed along with autism about 10 yrs old. Got the autism part removed years later since I seemed to thrive a bit too well (career, gf and such).

I guess I passed the test without signs, which was a obvious test of empathy and stuff (afaik). Was enough to remove the diagnosis.

I still believe that something isn't completely normal about me as I act differently alone than in public. I have a suspicion that I actually have 'slight autism' without actually knowing for sure. Diagnosing myself is so fucking stupid. I know. Might even not be autism at all.

But apparently I learned something new about myself now. Haha.

@angerydev psychiatric is a joke field

I've had many discussions with people trying to narrow down what autism is and nobody actually has a definition

best I got is it's when your immune system attacks neuronal tissue -- because in that study they found all the people in the autism category either had antibodies to their own neuronal tissues or their mothers had antibodies that would attack neuronal tissues, and everyone without autism never had something like that

but autism and all psychiatric conditions are diagnosed based on "it looks like that" and not actual biological markers. the whole field is a scam

ADHD can be simply caused if you have inflammation in the brain, as ADHD is defined as lower dopamine in "certain parts of the brain", and dopamine is an anti oxidant so if you have inflammation or toxins in your brain it will end up using up dopamine and you'll have less dopamine for behavioural stuff as a result...

but again, ADHD is diagnosed based on behavior. not markers