Many times in life I experienced situations that are depressing to me yet I'm not partially or totally conscious about it.

I have a very good example that I'm actually experiencing right now: me reporting the progress of a task to my boss and getting no response from him.

He has gone on these "ignoring sprees" in the past already and for the current one, it's been like four consecutive ignores.

I guess it's depressing for two reasons:

1) I feel like my work has no importance or value, which drags me down.
2) Sometimes he also tries to rush which I consider pretty hypocritical of him. because I have to basically not complain about it to not endanger this job relationship my family dearly depends on, I have to shut up and feel frustrated. (keep in mind i'm a south am person working for a us company and I was very lucky to get this job).

For some reason I just don't notice as easily how awful it makes me feel, but I wished I could fucking tell this straight into his fucking face:

You wanna be a boss? Be a fucking boss and check on my fucking progress.

I'm considering getting into security and going for bug bounties online.