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Just in case this is a serious issue, a friendly reminder:

Hating being alive is temporary. Suicidal people don't want to be dead, they just don't want to feel the way they do anymore. You can and will feel better in the future. There are lots of options that will make life enjoyable, talk to a professional or seek emergency care if you're ever suicidal.

Hating life < being dead < not hating life < liking life < loving life.

There's literally 3 more options that are better and support systems to get you to them. Use them!